Hiroshi wavers for a bit. Could he do that? Could he bring them back? Would everything just go back to the way they were?
He bites his lip. But... even if he brings them back, it doesn't change anything, does it? His failures of character. What happened in the mansion. Anything. And what if they just come back even more wrong than they've already come back? That would hardly be an improvement, right?
He pushes his glasses up. "...Tempting. But I do not feel I could wind back the clock at this point. Even if they all come back, if they all are just as happy and healthy as ever -- and no offense, sir, but I am uncertain such a thing would be possible -- it would not change the fundamental fact that what happened to them was due to my own deficiencies. Maybe I cannot bring them back. But..."
The boy pauses, closes his eyes. "But I just... want to resolve this feeling in my heart, this guilt at my own lack of diligence, my own lapses of courage." He looks down. "Perhaps that is more self-centered of a wish than allowing them to claim their lives back, but I do feel it would better address the fundamental root of the problem."
The root, of course, being that he's a terrible human being.
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He bites his lip. But... even if he brings them back, it doesn't change anything, does it? His failures of character. What happened in the mansion. Anything. And what if they just come back even more wrong than they've already come back? That would hardly be an improvement, right?
He pushes his glasses up. "...Tempting. But I do not feel I could wind back the clock at this point. Even if they all come back, if they all are just as happy and healthy as ever -- and no offense, sir, but I am uncertain such a thing would be possible -- it would not change the fundamental fact that what happened to them was due to my own deficiencies. Maybe I cannot bring them back. But..."
The boy pauses, closes his eyes. "But I just... want to resolve this feeling in my heart, this guilt at my own lack of diligence, my own lapses of courage." He looks down. "Perhaps that is more self-centered of a wish than allowing them to claim their lives back, but I do feel it would better address the fundamental root of the problem."
The root, of course, being that he's a terrible human being.